lifers

All of my writing has sucked in the past week.

I have a lot of phone calls to make.

I smoke too much now, because all I do is sit outside reading and trying to write.

I don’t know if this is a phase or not, but I’m really grossed out and disgusted by most people. Not even their mentalities, but being physically near them.

Maybe that’s a throwback to my childhood when my mother said I felt like being touched was like “poison.”

A lot of things are poisonous to me these days, I think.

I blew about an hour and $50 in Reckless today,

and I don’t feel bad because I figure I would have bought booze with that money anyway. 

I’ve bought 14 CDs there in the last month or two. It’s 2003.

Wait. Does anyone know the last time I was drunk?